a bit of a tough day, as far as missing home and my family goes.
I tried to do FaceTime on my iPad, which didn’t work, then tried iChat on the computer, and we could sort of see each other, but it was hard to hear- making conversation tough, especially with a 4 year old.
I had called Yuki earlier in the day, and she was shopping with Taiyo. She asked Taiyo if he wanted to talk to me, but he wouldn’t even hold the phone- he didn’t want to talk. And I try to be cool about that stuff- I know it’s just because he misses me that he won’t talk on the phone- but I’m realizing how sad it makes me. Not that he won’t talk to me, but that I’m away- and he’s obviously sad- and even with technology the way it is- it doesn’t always work the way you would hope it should, especially when you’re travelling.
So I’m missing my wife and child a lot right now. I love them both so much. I just can’t wait till December where I get to see everybody for a little over a week.
But yeah, I guess I have to be honest about how much I miss them, and being a part of their lives on a daily basis.
I feel a little bit disconnected from my kid- he’s growing so fast- and I’m not there to see it. But it did make me feel good that I am able to provide for them- and Yuki can go shopping and buy winter clothes for Taiyo. They’re taken care of. By me. Even though I’m not there.
And I know Taiyo is an exceptionally resillient kid… he’s got plenty to keep him busy, and so many fun activities that he and Yuki do together- and I have to remind myself that it’s because of the work that I’m doing, that they have that life.
once again, thanks for reading-