family disconnected…
a bit of a tough day, as far as missing home and my family goes.
I tried to do FaceTime on my iPad, which didn’t work, then tried iChat on the computer, and we could sort of see each other, but it was hard to hear- making conversation tough, especially with a 4 year old.
I had called Yuki earlier in the day, and she was shopping with Taiyo. She asked Taiyo if he wanted to talk to me, but he wouldn’t even hold the phone- he didn’t want to talk. And I try to be cool about that stuff- I know it’s just because he misses me that he won’t talk on the phone- but I’m realizing how sad it makes me. Not that he won’t talk to me, but that I’m away- and he’s obviously sad- and even with technology the way it is- it doesn’t always work the way you would hope it should, especially when you’re travelling.
So I’m missing my wife and child a lot right now. I love them both so much. I just can’t wait till December where I get to see everybody for a little over a week.
But yeah, I guess I have to be honest about how much I miss them, and being a part of their lives on a daily basis.
I feel a little bit disconnected from my kid- he’s growing so fast- and I’m not there to see it. But it did make me feel good that I am able to provide for them- and Yuki can go shopping and buy winter clothes for Taiyo. They’re taken care of. By me. Even though I’m not there.
And I know Taiyo is an exceptionally resillient kid… he’s got plenty to keep him busy, and so many fun activities that he and Yuki do together- and I have to remind myself that it’s because of the work that I’m doing, that they have that life.
once again, thanks for reading-
rion
Wow that’s heavy and heartfelt. I feel ya!!
November 2, 2012 at 7:22 am
Good job looking at the positive! Soon Taiyo will be school aged and it is a wonderful gift that you are giving him to spend everyday with his mom. I enjoy working and having the funds for our home, cars, etc. but somedays I would give anything to be with all my kids while they are little and then I think about all those out there struggling to find a good job, etc. and I feel lucky.
P.S. Sometimes my kids don’t like talking on the phone either and we see them everyday 🙂
November 2, 2012 at 10:48 am
Kinsley doesn’t talk on the phone…not because she’s mad… it’s just the age. Taiyo knows you are the best dad in the whole world!
November 2, 2012 at 6:51 pm
Thanks Mike- I love that little guy so much- it’s tough- and I’m just coming to grips with it!
November 4, 2012 at 3:48 am
I know how much you’re missing that special little boy. I miss him, too, a lot! He and Yuki will be here in four days and we’re so looking forward to having the two of them with us. Interesting, when we did a face chat a couple of days ago, Taiyo was trying to cover up the camera so he didn’t have to see us! I think he was more interested in the company at the house than us. A little later when he came back into view, he had a cute hat on! I always remember what my mom said about children, “It’s their nature to be happy.” It’s all good. — Your photographs are awesome! You difinitely have “the eye.” Nice bed bud self-portrait! That said it all!
Love you every day,
Mom
November 9, 2012 at 4:16 pm
Just sharing my version
http://grightnow.wordpress.com/2011/10/31/hair-cut/
November 15, 2012 at 9:24 am